I'm About to Let Go

I want to create something bigger than myself, something that isn't selfish. Although saying I want something bigger sounds a bit selfish, but that's now how I mean it.

I have this passion inside of me, and it's difficult to describe. It's like I'm bursting with this lightness, but since I have so much of it, it's heavy. I realize it's a paradox and it probably doesn't make sense to anyone but me. My point is, I want to share it. I want other people to experience it. If I can give even a fraction of it away to any given person...that would just be awesome. I guess what I really want is to create something beyond myself. Whether I accomplish this through performing, writing, teaching, or simple conversation I really don't care. I just need to DO something.

And I don't want to wait around for the opportunity to do it. And I don't think I have to create my own opportunity either. I am 100% positive that God has put multiple opportunities in my path, and I'm too oblivious (or proud) to see them. I need to stop talking about opening up my eyes, and actually do it.

So the next step is to get all the stuff that needs doing done so that I can fully devote myself to changing people's lives. I also have a feeling that this will help with all the stress I've been feeling lately. That also seems like a paradox, but I have this feeling that it'll all work out. In fact, this feeling is so strong I feel confident in saying it's an assurance from God. I'm letting go now and leaving it in Your hands. I'm ready for you to push and pull me in the right direction. I am Yours.