The Weekend

This weekend was Winterfest, a high school retreat hosted by members of Lutheran Campus Ministries at NAU. I learned a lot about myself and the way I handle situations, and grew to be more open towards varying perspectives with regards to things beyond religion. I also realized what I could have done differently as President of Band Council in high school.

Great as the weekend was, it just ended in a great big ball of mess. I think I hurt someone I really care about, I overstepped my boundaries, I snapped at people, I got frustrated, I forgot to pick up my medication so now I have to wake up at 5 to get it in my system on time, I have a ton of homework left to do, and to top it all off...I have no one to comfort me. I just need some one-on-one together time with a close friend. At this point, I don't really care who, just as long as they're willing to let me talk about everything.

I'm really hoping my outlook on the weekend improves when the crappy ending isn't so fresh in my mind and I've gotten enough sleep so I'm less irritable. I grew closer to a lot of people this weekend, and that was awesome. I also had a great conversation with God.

But right now, I'm on the verge of tears. I just need to get through this. And as I think about exactly what "this" is and how long it will last, I grow more hopeless. So I think I'm just going to say I need to get through tomorrow. That's step one.